Disconnect

Bismillah.

 

#SensiMe

 

At first I am excited. Maybe.. maybe I can connect and talk about many things with this kind of method of communication. So I sent the letter.

But perhaps, because I was expecting so much, that's why when the reply arrive, I got disappointed. I'm not saying the replies are bad. No it is not. I still appreciate that someone reply my letter. But I found the same familiar sad feeling after reading it. I can't find any question mark in the letter. So it feels like a disconnect.

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Maybe I am just in introvert phase. And I am just expecting at least one question mark, so I could tell others hundreds about me. But because there's not a knock there. How could I open my door, if there's no one knocking on it? So I am standing behind the doors feeling confused, part of me want to open it. But I'm afraid no one want to listen. So I take a step back. I am in my introvert phase. Let's wait for another extrovert moment, and then impulsively open the doors, and talk to strangers again.

Perhaps, I just need to learm to become a person who's brave to ask question, listen, and learn. And if I really want to speak for myself, I could do it alone, in my own way. Just like how I usually do. Open mic, and post it somewhere and let the world listens. Or open hand, and send up prayers as Allah is always listening.

Wallahua'lam.