Why is Love Painful? (part 2)

Bismillah. 

Prolog

Sebelum ke topik yang tertulis di judul, aku mau menceritakan behind story-nya dulu. Jadi, beberapa waktu ini, aku menikmati metode belajar bahasa dengan cara membaca tulisan (open letter di Slowly, atau halaman buku), menerjemahkannya dengan bantuan Meta AI, melakukan breakdown kalimat di sana, dan menganalisis isi atau kata atau grammar di dalamnya.

Qadarullah, salah satu pengguna hellotalk yang aku ikuti sedang membaca buku tentang cinta, judulnya 처음부터 끝까지 고백 by 이주영, literal arti judulnya Love Confession from First till The End by Lee JuYeong. Biasanya beliau (pengguna hellotalk tersebut) buka voiceroom trus baca buku gitu full dalam bahasa korea. Aku kebetulan gak match jadwalnya, jadi aku chat minta kirim halaman dari buku tersebut. Dan dia dengan baik hati kasih lumayan banyak.. Padahal kemampuan bahasa koreaku masih minim. Anyway.

Jadi di halaman awal penulis mengatakan bahwa gara-gara jatuh cinta terlalu dalam, dia sampai harus makan obat sakit kepala dan obat pencernaan. Jujur aku agak tidak mengerti kenapa sampai segitunya. Berdasarkan pengalamanku, jatuh cinta lebih sering menghadirkan perasaan positif. Even if it's a crush, having a crush for me is like having a hidden treasure, a little sweet thing we could take in our day.

Lalu ketika baca lebih banyak halaman, aku sedikit bisa memahami penulis. Menurutku yang membuat perasaannya sampai mempengaruhi kesehatan fisiknya itu bukan cinta tersebut, tapi karena ia terbiasa menekan perasaan/emosinya. Seseorang yang terbiasa menekan emosi/perasaan biasanya pasti bisa berefek ke penyakit fisik, atau mungkin biasa disebut psikomatis.

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Lanjut… beberapa hari berikutnya, di open letter slowly, ada sebuah surat berbahasa arab. Karena aku waktu itu lagi bahas Slowly sama Meta AI, jadi deh, aku share surat tersebut dan minta Meta AI buat nerjemahin suratnya.

Trus kita lanjut diskusi deh, tentang salah satu kalimat populer dalam bahasa arab yang sering ada di lirik-lirik lagu.

Dan dari surat itu, aku tahu kalau si penulis juga merasakan rasa sakit karena cinta.

Trus, aku jadi membuka diskusi tentang hal tersebut dengan meta AI *please don't judge me cause I'm having this conversation with AI instead of real person. ><

Dari situ deh, kami bahas tentang why love is painful, dan pilihanku supaya cinta tidak semenderita dan semenyakitkan itu.

Sekian prolognya.  Setelah ini, aku akan copy paste percakapanku dengan meta AI. It will be in english. Aku mungkin akan mengedit atau memotong bagian-bagian tertentu, jadi yang kamu baca bukan full percakapan antara aku dan meta AI. 

 

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Love That Doesn't End as What We Want

Aku baca sebuah open letter di Slowly dalam bahasa arab, dengan bantuan Meta AI (karena aku gak punya kemampuan baca bahasa arab tanpa harakat selain yang udah familiar seperti doa/ayat Quran).

 

Berikut sebagian kecil dari open letter yang aku baca, dan translasi dari Meta AI.

 

 

 

the breakdown:

Lalu aku bertanya lebih jauh tentang kalimat yang masih aku tidak pahami. Here my conversation with Meta AI.

 

💬 Me: Can you explain me this sentence, "A person gets their share of what they love" or "we take a glimpse of the thing we loved"

Actually I don't know if I understand it properly.

Is the meaning is, we can't get all what we love, only a little, a part, or a glimpse of it?

📱 Meta AI: You’re understanding it, and the fact that you’re unsure proves the sentence is doing its job. It’s meant to ache a little.
 

“A person gets their share of what they love”

Yes, but it’s deeper than “you can’t have it all.”

Think of it like this:

1️⃣ “Share / نصيب” → In Arabic, _nasib_ = portion, fate, destiny. It’s not just “a little piece”.

It’s “the piece that was written for you”.

So the line is saying: love isn’t a buffet. You don’t get to pick 5 servings.

You get what life/fate hands you. Sometimes that’s a lot, sometimes a glimpse.

2️⃣ “We take a glimpse of the thing we loved” → This is the softer, sadder version.

A glimpse = لمحة. Not the whole person, not the whole story. Just a look, a memory, a feeling that passes. Like seeing someone you loved across the street for 2 seconds. That’s your share.
 

So the meaning has 2 layers:

▪️ *Practical layer*: You won’t own all of what you love. You can love the night, but you can’t marry it. You can love a person, but you don’t get every version of them. You get moments. Glimpses.

▪️ *Philosophical layer*: Maybe that’s enough. The sentence doesn’t say “you’re unlucky”.

It says “that glimpse _is_ your share”. It’s not punishment. It’s just how love works. We don’t get to keep it. We get to witness it.

That’s why the writer put it right before “….it’s all I have 🤍”. He’s looking at his glimpse and calling it “all”. Not because he’s delusional, but because he’s accepted it.

For an overthinker like you, it’s brutal and comforting at once. Brutal: “I won’t get all of it”. Comforting: “but what I did get was mine. And it counts.”

Does that land? Or does it still feel like the sentence is dodging the real answer?

💬 Me: So it's talking about fate.

Btw, actually I can't really read Arabic without harakah, so I don't know the real sound of the sentence he heard from the song. Can you put the romanization of it?

I just realize it's talking about nasib. I know nasib, since it's also a word in Indonesia.

So I think he just talking about loving someone who he can't be married to.

 

📱Meta AI: Exactly — it’s all about _nasib_. And you’re right, Indonesia borrowed that word too. Same meaning: portion, fate, what’s written for you.

You nailed his situation too. “Loving someone you can’t be married to” is the most common way that line gets used. He got his glimpse, not the whole life.

Since you can’t read Arabic without harakah, here’s the romanization so you can “hear” it:

*1️⃣ “A person gets their share of what they love”*

Arabic: كل واحد بياخد نصيبه من اللي بيحبه

Romanization: _Kull wahed biyakhud nasibu min illi bihibbu_

Pronunciation tip: _Kull wa-HED bi-YA-khud na-SEE-bu min IL-li bi-HIB-bu_

Literally: “Everyone takes his share from the one he loves”

*2️⃣ “We take a glimpse of the thing we loved”*

Arabic: بناخد لمحة من الحاجة اللي حبناها

Romanization: _Binakhud lamha min el haga illi hibnaha_

Pronunciation tip: _bi-NA-khud LAM-ha min el HA-ga IL-li hi-BNA-ha_

_Lamha_ = glimpse, flash, momentary look.

_Haga_ = thing/stuff, casual word.

*About nasib:*

Yeah, it’s fate, but not the “everything is planned so why try” kind.

In Arabic love songs, _nasib_ is bittersweet.

It means “this was meant for me, but only this much”. Like getting 3 songs with someone instead of a whole album.

So when he writes that line, he’s not complaining. He’s naming it. “Okay. My nasib with her was night walks + a song. That’s it. That’s my share.”

Hearing it romanized, does it hit different?

The _nasibu min illi bihibbu_ has that rhythm that makes people quote it for years.

 

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Tapi percakapanku dengan Meta AI belum selesai,

 

To be continued...

 

Trailer for next part/ ending part..

cuplikan layar import percakapan dengan Meta AI [1]

Wallahua'lam.

 

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Keterangan: 

[1] Karena percakapan di Meta AI gak bisa di search dan aku cape harus scroll up hanya untuk buat konten/tulisan dari percakapanku dengan AI yang campur2 isinya, akhirnya aku pilih import percakapanku dari WA ke Telegram. Ada yang aku import ke email juga, tapi belum aku buka sama sekali, karena lebih sederhana import ke chat telegramku ke akun hubby wkwkwk.